Why are people so blind

They can’t see the clues 

Hear the words that are being shown to them

Why don’t they see

Why don’t they listen

Why don’t they acknowledge them

I know all I can do is sit and hope someone helps

I have given the signs

I have spoken the words

But still 

Avoidance

Ignorance

It ruins me to be heard only by the surface,

So what I am to do

Honestly I have no idea

I've sat being the aid

Being the friend

Being the helper

Trying not to let my feelings show through

Trying to suppress the anxieties and thoughts creaking in,

The anxiety keeps me silent and in check

My heart sits idling waiting

But still no answer 

Just hurt 

And silence

And fear

And guilt

And longing 

No guidance